Title: How to Save a Life
Author Name & Publisher: Andria Large
Publication Date & Length: May 24, 2016 – 195 Pages
How do you save someone’s life?
There’s the obvious way of physically saving them from a tragic end.
Then there’s the more subtle way of saving someone who doesn’t know they need to be saved. Someone who is drowning emotionally and has no idea that they are slowing dying.
Ezra Whitmore is one of those people. After tragically losing his wife, he’s still going through the motions, but not really living. All he has now is his son, Spencer, and his career as a dentist. The life he thought he was going to have has been torn apart. The things he had once enjoyed no longer feel the same without the person he had shared everything with.
That is, until Ferris Jenkins crashes into his life. Not only does the lifeguard save his son from literally drowning in the ocean, but he also slowly starts to bring Ezra back to life.
As soon as Ferris lays eyes on Ezra, he can’t get the gorgeous dentist out of his head. He knows nothing will ever happen between them because…well, Ezra is straight and he’s gay. You can imagine Ferris’ surprise when Ezra gets drunk one night, kisses him, and admits that he’s always been attracted to guys. This gives Ferris hope that maybe, just maybe, he can land the man of his dreams.
This is such an incredible book. I love a book that when you are reading it you find yourself smiling at the happy parts, crying at the sad parts, and getting mad at the parts where you want to just grab someone and shake them and say what are you thinking. That is what this book did for me.
Coming out is not an easy thing. Especially when you have hideout from everyone for so long and Es married to a woman and have a son of your own. That is what happened to Ezra. But after his wife died unexpectedly and his 14 year old son at the time came out to Ezra, it became hard to hide those feeling any longer. Especially after meeting Ferris.
I personally feel that Ezra’s fears kept him from fully being who he is. He feared losing his family and he also feared what people would think about him. I do not honestly think that he would have faced who he truly is on the inside of it had not been for his sons bravery when he came out to Ezra. You could that Ezra was so proud of his son for doing what he had always been afraid to do but he was also scared for him. I think it took a lot for Ezra to wrap his mind around the reality that it is ok to be who you are and love who you want to love. I also believe that Ferris helped him with that.
Ferris is such a strong person but he also has his own hurt from losing his family when he came out so he understands what Ezra is going through and I think that makes it easier for Ferris to be patient with Ezra and do things on his own timeline. But I also think that because of their relationship it helps when Ferris’s family unexpectedly comes back into his life after Ezra’s son Soencer lays into Ferris’s brother for the way the family treated him when he and out.
I truly believe that both of these men helped the other man in ways that made each other’s life so much fuller and completed and complimented one another in ways no one else ever could.
This book is such an incredible story about overcoming fear and finding the one person that you can be yourself with without feeling like you have to hide. It is a story about love and acceptance.
I really hope that Andria large will make a second book and make this into a series so we can see what happens with Spencer and Jessie because I believe that would be a good story.
I love this author. I truly enjoyed the Beck brother’s series. I received a free copy of this book from Inked Rainbow Reviews in exchange for an honest review.
I admire Ezra’s strength. His wife recently passed away, and Spencer just recently told him he is gay. Ezra vows to do what he can to show his son the support he wishes he had gotten at that age. Ezra could never talk to his family about his sexual preferences for fear of being rejected. Ezra can’t help his attraction to Ferris. Although, it takes him by surprise because he thought he had been able to suppress those feelings.
Ferris is a mature, out and proud gay man in his 30’s. He’s crushing hard for Ezra, but he refuses to go back in the closet for anyone. Ferris wants Ezra to date women to be sure he’s really interested in men the same as women. Yet when he sees Ezra with a woman he gets angry and acts liked a jilted lover. His feelings toward Ezra are strong, but if Ezra can’t express himself publicly, there is no future for a romantic relationship between them.
I was happy they were finally able to work through their own thoughts and fears together to make the relationship work. This is a feel good story from start to finish. I hope Spencer gets his own story as he goes off to college and starts his life on his own.
So, Ezra and I head for the dance floor. We find an open spot in the midst of the crowd that is mostly girls. I find out very quickly that Ezra is a really sexy dancer. Oh, what I would give to be all over that delicious body of his. He rolls his body like a goddamn male stripper. I’m mesmerized and completely turned the fuck on.
A young girl, probably in her mid-twenties, dances her way in front of Ezra. She puts her back to him and shoves her ass in his crotch. She’s a cute girl with a nice body. Ezra’s eyebrows shoot up and his wide eyes meet mine. He actually gives me a “Help me!” look. Apparently, he’s not ready to have a young girl bumping and grinding on him. It seems that even though my friend is lonely and could use some lovin’, it doesn’t look like he’s ready to have some chick he doesn’t know rubbing herself all over him.
Ferris to the rescue!
I step closer and grab Ezra’s hand, pulling him out from behind the girl and up against my side. I wrap my free arm around his waist and pull him in so that we are touching from chest to thigh. Ezra can no doubt feel my erection against his hip, but it can’t be helped.
“Hey!” the girl, who looks downright pissed, yells over the music. “I was dancing with him!”
“Sorry, hun, but he’s with me, and I’d appreciate it if you kept your skanky ass away from his cock,” I drawl, palming Ezra’s ass for effect.
I feel Ezra’s hand snake around my waist, causing goose bumps to pop up all over my skin. The girl rolls her eyes and mutters something about all of the hot ones being gay, before stomping off through the crowd. I smile my triumph and turn to look at Ezra, who is so close that our noses touch when I face him.
My breath catches as a wave of desire hits me hard. Shit, I would love to seal my lips over his right now. I swear that same look is in his eyes again; but this time, the lust has been cranked up a notch. He looks like he’s actually thinking about kissing me, too.
“You might want to dance with me if you don’t want to get hit on,” I murmur just loud enough for him to hear me.
Ezra licks his bottom lip and gives me a jerky nod. “Yeah, okay, we can dance.”
We slowly start swaying to the music. I turn slightly so that we are completely facing each other and slip my thigh in between his. The arm Ezra has around my waist tightens, pulling me closer. His nose brushing my cheek and ear, sending shivers down my spine. We grind against each other. I keep my hand on his ass for show…okay, that’s a lie; I just want to touch his ass. It’s a very nice ass – firm and round – and I’m fairly certain that what I’m feeling against my thigh is his erection. Fuck me, I’m in so much trouble with this guy.
Andria is married and a stay at home mother with two crazy little girls and two psychotic cats. She doesn’t go anywhere without her precious iPhone and a purse full of animal crackers. She used to be completely obsessed with the Backstreet Boys, but now is only mildly obsessed (still goes to every concert when they are in town). She loves cartoons and Disney movies, and can probably recite every line from Dumb and Dumber. Humor is a must in her life; otherwise, it would be completely boring. Pepsi is her weakness, along with anything chocolate. She can’t sing to save her life, but she pretends she can when she is alone in her car with the music blasting so that she can’t hear herself.
She loves to read Romance. Paranormal, Scottish, Military, Police, Firefighters, Athletes, Cowboys and M/M are her favorite. She is not so much a fan of YA, though. If you haven’t been able to tell from reading her books, she likes – whether she is reading them or writing them – lots of hot steamy sex.