Title: Sweetbreads and Sweet Nothings
Author Name & Publisher: Evelyn Esrig (Dreamspinner Press)
Publication Date & Length: October 21, 2015 – 83 pgs
Bartender Lukas Schueller’s life in Berlin falls apart when his boyfriend, Bernhard, disappears without a trace. A year later Lukas is finally picking up the pieces of his life. He’s back on track with his Divinity studies and has found love again in Kristoph, a science professor at his University.
Things are looking up until the shocking truth about his former lover’s disappearance comes to light: Bernhard was killed and cannibalized by a man he met on the Internet. Even more horrifying, he volunteered for it. When Lukas receives graphic proof of this, he is haunted by grotesque dreams and unbearable heartbreak.
As he begins to wade into the mystery of why someone would choose to be eaten by someone else, he comes face to face with what it means to confront his own fears and must try to build a new life with Kristoph from the ashes of the old.
A Bittersweet Dreams title: It’s an unfortunate truth: love doesn’t always conquer all. Regardless of its strength, sometimes fate intervenes, tragedy strikes, or forces conspire against it. These stories of romance do not offer a traditional happy ending, but the strong and enduring love will still touch your heart and maybe move you to tears.
So I went into this book expecting something different then what you get with this book.. Okay I will say I love horror movies and have seen all of the Hannibal Lector movies so when I tell you this believe me this is the way I felt after reading this. There is a point in a book especially in a horror book to me at least that it can be too graphic. Well the part when he watches he boyfriend that disappeared being eaten alive and it goes into every single detail to the point that I had to stop reading because once you have read something it is in your head which would explain why I am sitting here crying while writing this because what happened was horrible and I could have done without all the details of what happened for the rest of my life! Why would you ever want to see a video like that especially when it was someone you loved!!! I just can’t understand that at all… So being a horror fan I will say this was to much for me and that is saying a lot. I would not call this a romance as much as a very graphic horror novel with a little romance mixed in. Now I thought the author did a excellent job explaining how Lukas worked through everything that had happened so please don’t get me wrong I just honestly wish I could unread that part and seriously think this book should come with a warning on just how graphic it really is. I felt like the author did a good job explaining the emotional aspect of what Lukas was going through. I also got were the author was going with this book but all I was left with after reading this was you could never make me understand why one man would want another too eat him. I did not feel like Lukas really got very far working through anything if anything I thought watching everything he did and talking to the man that had done this horrible thing had made everything worse. I honestly don’t know what else to say about this book other than I really wish I would have not read that part and I could have gone through the rest of my life without all those vivid details. So I will give this 3 stars because got what the author was trying to have come across in this book with the emotional aspect of trying to work through losing someone you loved in such a horrible way but because of the graphic details and a lot of unanswered questions I have to say this book was just not for me……